secrets?

ok, so remember that journal? that chuck shredded? i don't know why, but i was thinking about it last night and asked him about it. i said, "what did you write about." i meant like generalizations. not tell me what it said. like i wrote about life and this and that. or i wrote silly poetry. or i wrote stories about a deer that was half man, half eagle (i know, where does the deer part come in?). i guess he took it wrong and thought i was trying to peer into his journaling privacy. he got angry with me.

so, he of course asked me what i write about. i told him mostly nonsensical stupid things that i don't talk to chadika about or things i would talk to her about... cuz i can't very well talk to him about him, can i? he flipped it and asked "if i read your secret blog (the very blog you are reading at this very moment) would it change anything between us?" i really don't think so. it's not like our relationship is some awful twisted thing. in fact, it's pretty coolness. i guess it's secret because i don't want my family reading it or my friends... i don't want to be confronted with things in real life. i don't want somebody who reads this to know this much about me. i don't want aaaalll that out in my life. i don't want some dr i know and like telling me i said something incorrect about whatever.

i'm going to tell him he can read it if he would like. i thought about going back through and looking to see if i said anything bad. but what bad has there been? nothing. just little things i need to talk out. i know it wouldn't change anything between us and i don't think it would color my writing differently.

ps apparently i'm on the computer too much at home. i will try to do this at lunch. BUT i don't think i can promise that about the food blog.