does your mind constantly go? my co-worker (who shall remain nameless) wrote me a song. "becky, becky you are so sexy.*" and i had to tell him, in front of all my other co-workers, "thanks," in response, while also telling him that i already have a boyfriend so... thanks? except, he really didn't. and i really didn't.
i took a shower this morning, the TV was on mute and the radio wasn't on in the background. therefore, i made up a stupid non-sense story in my head because i'm trying not to think about other more stressful things. do you do this? am i crazy?
the main reason i watch TV (other than FOTC which must be watched for the sheer joy it brings the children of the world. "why won't someone think of the children??!??!!!") is so that i don't have to think, about stuff. i am the ultimate worrier. i am the ultimate over thinker. i am the ultimate over analyzer. i am the ultimate panic attack... er. this is a huge problem when something in my life is stressful. like, i'm applying to a program and every night i start going into all the little things that could go wrong with my ap. and then my stomach starts to squench (it's squenching now just thinking about squenching) and then i have to think about SOMETHING to stop the ULCER that is undoubtedly searing through my stomach lining.
lotto, lotto, lotto, i say to myself. what would i do if we won the lotto? i would buy chuck a car. wait! no, first i would set up a blind trust with a lawyer. no! two lawyers. independently. so that they can't screw me. then i would drive to austin on my day off to make sure everything goes smoothly and i can surprise chuck! that would be so fun!
so then i can start a list of all the people i would secretly give money to while not letting them know i won the lottery. after about 10 minutes of this i can relax and sleep. sometimes i have set backs and i have to start all over again.
*most embarrassing song title ever. but! i had to tell the truth, that was the song that he sang, in my crazy head that's also stuck in there as we speak. hopefully i won't sing it aloud while going about my daily life.
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How funny would it be if you were caught accidentally singing a song about yourself??
one time i wore a head band/scarfy thing to work. i was getting compliments about it and i said, "i thought it would cover all the craziness going on under here," pointing to my not so much curly but frizzy hair.
they all laughed at me. the hair, people!
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