Do you ever get that feeling where your chest tightens, your breathing quickens and you can feel tears welling up behind your eye balls… and you have no idea why?
Please God someone tell me that it isn’t just me.
Normally I’m a “roll with the punches” kind of girl. I mean, I’m not laid back by any stretch of the imagination – but on any given day I can get as good as I give. Usually when people give me shit, I laugh and come up with funny little ways to make them cry.
But not today. Today I am in one of those moods where fucking with me is not funny. Today I am in one of those moods where I just want to say “stop!! it is no longer FUN to be the butt of everyone’s fucking jokes… mmmm’kay!?!”
Today I do not want to have every single one of my faults pointed at. I will not laugh with you. And today, it feels like that’s all I ever hear.
I know, in my head, that that is not rational – or even real. But none of that is doing anything to appease this hypersensitivity.
And I KNOW I don’t have PMS yet. I did quit smoking five days ago – but it seems like that would have kicked in earlier, wouldn’t it?
Jeez, my birthday is in two days. I hope to God I’m not still feeling like this then.